Fri, May 07 | Big Oak Farms

#FearLess - Women's Retreat

Join us for a weekend long, confidence building, and empowering event shared with other women in our community. The goal is not to be fearless...rather #FearLess

Time & Location

May 07, 4:00 PM – May 09, 12:00 PM
Big Oak Farms, 21 Big Oak Rd, Dillsburg, PA 17019, USA

About the Event

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."

- Frank Herbert Dune

There are challenges, conflicts and crisis that are an inevitable part of being human. In these times of difficulty we can become overwhelmed by our emotions, fear, shame, anger, disappointment, and sorrow as a result of living through these experiences. Humans are resilient beings who are built for surviving and recovery. Franklin Roosevelt said, "there is nothing to fear but fear itself". It is actually the fear that does the most damage, not the experiences themselves.

Fear results in anxiety and worry. Fear is paralyzing. Are you allowing fear to dictate your decisions? Maybe you are silently hurting or holding in anger and frustration related to trauma or abuse. Maybe you have a permanent mask on to hide the shame and disappointment of self destruction. Maybe you are afraid of being rejected...not included...not enough...too much. Are you living every day in fear? Are you living at all? Maybe you are just surviving.

Join us for a weekend long, confidence building, and empowering event shared with other women in our community. The goal is not to be fearless...rather #FearLess.

This May 7th-9th event at Big Oak Farm in Dillsburg, PA is limited to just 12 spots. We hope you will join us if you feel called to do so. Exchange of $195 per person. For women ages 21 and older.

Enjoy time connecting with other amazing women at the beautiful Big Oak Farms. Find stillness on the surface of the pond. Explore your layers as you step into the depths of the woods. Attendees will be able to set up their own private tents, or may wish to make alternative sleeping arrangements off grounds. Rustic camping is a great way to connect with your basic needs. 

Friday: Attendees may arrive as early as 4pm to set up, mingle, and gather for our ice breaker dinner.

Saturday: Full day of planned experiences with some built in self time. Nutritious meals will be provided. 

Sunday: Enjoy breakfast and final experiences to seal in the weekend and be "set free" around noon. 

About the Faciilitators!

My name is Cali. My story is the inspiration for this event. I am a survivor of prolonged childhood sexual and psychological abuse.

I have been a grown up for as long as I can remember. I recall clear memories as young as 3 years old. I never repressed any of the memories of my abuse. There was never a day that passed without being fully and painfully aware of my reality. Outwardly, I gave the appearance of a happy, outgoing kid. I played outside all day with friends, took dance lessons, sang in the choir, auditioned for every play, and volunteered to help my teachers with anything the needed. I got great grades, loved school, and always kept my room spotless. Inwardly, I lived each day desperate for absolute perfection. I went to bed every night terrified. I laid silent…barely breathing…waiting. Anxiety. Severe distress. Night terrors. Exhaustion. Morning sickness. Repeat.

I was born with heightened intuition. I have experienced precognitive dreams since I was a teenager. Some might call them prophetic dreams or psychic dreams. True precognitive dreams have no previous events or experiences contributing to them. They’re random and unexpected. They give you information about the future you wouldn’t otherwise have. My dreams give me warnings of things that are to come. They are not pleasant, and they are always about someone I am close to in my life. I just…know things…feel them physically.

I am not a counselor or therapist. I am not a health care professional. I was a little girl that did not deserve to lose her innocence and childhood. I was a teenager that lived in a constant state of self-destruction. I was a young woman that was so desperate for love and acceptance that I allowed a man to threaten to shoot me in both of my knees if I tried to walk out the door. I was a woman with children living with a husband that accused her throughout their entire marriage of cheating. I was a woman that reached such a level of depression that I no longer had the mental or physical strength to go on. I knew that if I stayed in that marriage…I would be dead. I was a 39-year-old woman that found herself having a terrifying conversation with her children about getting themselves safely out of the house without trying to help their Mommy if they ever heard me scream in my bedroom because their Dad refused to let me go after I filed for divorce. I was a 44-year-old woman that allowed childhood trauma to define who I was my entire life. I WAS my story.

I woke up one day in 2016 with overwhelming sadness of the thought of going to my grave having never experienced true happiness, or joy, or peace. I made the decision to force the change. I joined a women’s sacred circle filled with strangers. One life changing friend led to another. I was referred to my therapist and have put in endless hours in sessions the last 5.5 years. I have gone to retreats. I have stretched myself to my breaking point over and over. I have worked HARD! I have crawled on my hands and knees through the yuck to get where I am today. My former self is a stranger. It was hard. It got uglier before it got better. There were many times when I doubted the process, but I kept showing up for myself.

The beginning of 2019, I chose “fearless” as one of my 3 words for the year. It became clear to me very quickly that my interpretation would be “FearLess”. That day changed my life. I am not a statistic. I am a fighter. I am strong and can do hard things. I am resilient. I have grit and perseverance. I deserve love. I will not give up another day of my life to my story, or to fear.

Go camping alone. Get the passport. Take the trip you never dared to dream. Walk out the door. Say no. Say YES! I know you are scared. Do it anyway!


Jennifer Rabenstein is a compassionate inspiration to create a life you love. It is important to her to hold space for others to feel appreciated, supported, inspired, and optimistic. She is the sole proprietor of Holistic Hearts, where she offers a variety of holistic healing services. Along her path she has become a Reiki Master Teacher, a certified reflexologist, a registered yoga teacher (RYT200), and an artist. She has strengthened her skills by pursuing and practicing ReikiSound, animal Reiki, animal communication, crystal Reiki, art therapy, color therapy, henna art, life coaching, and spiritual healing. She is actively seeking more knowledge and experience with shamanic practices, Priestess training, and exploring deeper in Kundalini yoga and therapeutic art. She is learning through her own experiences and under mentors to better connect with others in private sessions, social gatherings, circles, workshops and retreats. Jennifer is grateful for all the tools she has on hand to utilize with her own healing and to share it with others.

Jennifer’s own life has its challenges in which she feels are important life lessons. Gradually loosing her eyesight to Stargardts (a hereditary form of macular degeneration) she has received a different perspective about the world she sees. Though she is losing her eyesight, she is strengthening her vision. Overwriting her past traumas has aided her in growing and going in the direction to FearLess. She and her husband homeschool their two sets of twins in what they have called, “Elements of Life Academy.” As a family they have fun, imagine, create, study and practice the “one heart way” through Isshinryu karate, learn life lessons, address their individual needs, build confidence and awareness, embark on family adventures, explore nature, and always remind each other that everyone has a story. Jennifer believes there are opportunities every day to create a life you love.

About Big Oak Farms:

Big Oak is a beautiful 90 acre farm run by the Witmer family. Here, at Big Oak, they believe in the healing power of nature and community. They host community events, summer camps, and retreats.

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